Saturday, November 29, 2008
DnD.
Daily affair of endless practice.
Finally seeing the fruits of our labour.
And yes, in case you haven't heard, the GTs are made to perform every year.
And it's our turn this year.
Wasn't entirely thrilled to learn that we'll be performing in front of at least 300 people, but as our practices wore on, I realised I didn't really mind that much after all.
At least all the sweat and discussion have produced something tangible.
And I suppose we've bonded better among the six of us.
Or what some people observed.
BUT. Looks can be so deceiving.
Anyways, my internship in the ops department is drawing to an end come Monday. Surprisingly, I wasn't as stressed out over this experience as compared to the previous one. I actually think these three weeks have been favour-filled, letting me witness the generosity of people to teach me what they know, and kindness in including me in things, such as giving me food (when they didn't have to). It's getting so that I'll be a little sad to leave, but that has to happen nonetheless.
And the only blemish would have to be the slight unpleasantness directed not too discreetly at me.
Not that I give a hoot, or feeling real upset about it.
Somehow I just wish that I'll be accessed based on my abilities, and not the way I look.
If you have issues with that, it's really your problem, so please don't make it mine thankyouverymuch.
Other than that little unpleasantness, work has been ok, for which I'm thankful. (:
And I really should curb my spending - I'm hardly saving at the rate I'm going, and if I don't do anything about it, my Japan trip for next year's prolly just what it is: A dream, that's all.
Speaking of which, it's been two months since the bf left for Japan; won't deny the occasional acute loneliness that strikes me, or the longing I feel when I see couples on the streets. Oh wells.
Anyway, JLPT's in another week - most prolly I won't have time to finish studying for it, which means I'll just have to guess my way through. >.<
Anyway, it's been a long rambling post.
Shall end here for now.
Later, people. (:
♥7:07 PM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
I seem to have a knack for alienating people.
I think someone's mad at me...
Or perhaps, I'm giving myself too much credit.
....Complicated people really complicate life.
♥7:09 PM
Sunday, November 9, 2008
一切，感觉好陌生。My heart is constricting.
Everything seems so far away.
I don't know what to feel anymore.所知道的，已变得生疏。
不知道的，却越来越多。Missing out on so many things.
But I've no desire to reconcile things anymore.
♥8:26 PM
Saturday, November 1, 2008
My spirit's in tatters.
It all started again yesterday, and despite E trying to cheer me up, those feelings aren't something that can be chased away with a pet on the head or bolstering words.
I'm so tired of this recurring nightmare.
Of constantly feeling out of my league.
Was so close to calling it quits yesterday.
How do I go on, when my world is in shambles?
♥4:49 PM
