Saturday, January 16, 2010
I think I made a breakthrough during CG and fellowship last night. Was debating with myself whether to show up but I'm glad I did. Not only did I get to know some people better, but there was this lesser sense of awkwardness I feel, as if I'm part of the group and not just as an onlooker. And the peeps were real sweet to celebrate and pray for the Jan babies, myself included.
Speaking of which, can't believe I'm turning 24 in another week's time! How did I get to become a quarter of a century old (well, almost) anyway? It feels as if I've only really just started living my life.
And I guess that'll be all for now... :)
♥7:59 PM
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Inspired to blog this after CG yesterday afternoon. :)
We talked about our hopes for this 2010, and shared about the challenges we faced/foresee that we'll face.
To say the least, 2009 was a challenging and fulfilling year for me.
It marked my first full year of working life. Thinking back on it, I still remember the struggles and stumbling blocks along the way, battling with self-doubt everyday, and wondering if I'm suitable for my current position or if I'll ever be up to par.
Throughout this entire time, I was too self-occupied, and relying too much on my own efforts. When the outcome wasn't what I wanted, I'd lament to God, and forgot about how mighty He is, and how small my problem was compared to what He can do for me.
I've cried, complained, felt disappointed, belittled, and so unsure time and again. But Daddy didn't give up on me at all - all I have to do was to rest in the knowledge that He has everything in His hands, and that He won't ever shortchange His beloved. Once God opened a door, no one can shut it. And if He chooses to shut a door, no man can ever open it. Being led to this point in my life and career right now is all part of the greater plan He has for me.
I can frankly say that I don't deserve the (unmerited) favour I'm enjoying at my workplace now, and especially with my boss. There are lots more people who are better qualified than me, yet Daddy placed me in this department (which was what I've always wanted right from the start) so that I can learn, regardless of the tears, second-guessing, boredom and complaints I've shed and harboured. For that, I'm truly grateful.
Anyway, moving forward into 2010, I hope to have a more fulfilling job, and despite the challenges I'll definitely face, I will take them in stride for God is my defense Amen!
My take-away from the fantastic CG yesterday:
- "With God everything is possible." (Matt 19:26)
Anyway, I would just like to end off this post with my resolutions for 2010:
1) Have a closer relationship with God and more faith
2) Treat my family better
3) Be a more caring/loving/supportive/cheerful gf
4) To curb my spending
Till then again, labour into His rest for 2010!! :)
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